Two Thousand and Fourteen.

I stumbled upon this on tumblr:

NEW YEARS QUESTIONS


1:Describe your year in one word
Confusing
2. Describe your year in three words 
Roller-coaster of Emotions
3:Describe your year in one sentence 
Probably not what I expected.
4:Describe your year with song lyrics 
'We all have a little more homework to do...'
5:Describe your year with a quote/quotes '
Tomorrow brings better days.'
6:Best memories from 2014? 
Good vibes with good people.
7:Worst memories from 2014? 
Some things need not be shared
8:Biggest surprise in 2014? 
Making a grown up decision.
9:If you could change one thing about the past year what would it be? 
My lack of motivation
10:If you could relive one day from 2014, which day would you choose and why? 
February 12/ July 21/ December 13.
11:What's the strangest thing that happened to you in 2014? 
Strange probably isn't the word I would use.
12:If you got the chance to relive this year would you do it? 
Probably not; I hate living in the past.
14:Who were the most meaningful people in your life this past year? 
They know who they are. There are about 6 not including family.
15:Did any major life changes happen to you in the past year? 
Nothing too major no..
16:Who's the coolest person you met in 2014? 
Some rad uni friends
17:Any regrets concerning the past year? 
A couple
18:What is the most memorable thing that happened to you in 2014? 
I don't have an answer
19:Would you say you had a good year? 
Some days were worse than others, but on an overall scale it was alright
20:What's the greatest achievement you made this year? 
Making some sort of decision about my future
21:Name one meaningful song for every month of the past year 
January: Everybody's Free (Rozalla)
February: Birthday (Katy Perry)
March: What it means to be a friend (13 The Musical)
April: Take me out to the Ball Game (Jack Norworth)
May: The Anthem (Good Charlotte)
June: Mama I'm a big girl now (Hairspray the Musical)
July: It's my birthday (Will.I.Am)
August: Ugly Heart (G.R.L)
September: Fast Car (Tracey Chapman)
October: Thriller (Michael Jackson)
November: We are the Champions (Queen)
December: All I want for Christmas is you (Mariah Carey)
22:What's the best thing that was said to you this year? 
'Mental health and knowledge are power'
23:What's the worst thing that was said to you this year? 
There are a couple I can think of
24:What's the best gift you received this year? 
A holiday with my friends
25:Best book you read in 2014? 
Alleigent
26:Best tv show you watched in 2014? 
How to Get Away with Murder/ Red Band Society
27:Best movie you saw in 2014? 
Divergent
28:Best song you heard in 2014? 
Blank Space (Taylor Swift)
29:Most boring day of the year? 
Most.
30:Saddest day of the year? 
December 14
31:Scariest moments in 2014? 
Martin Place Siege, Family News, University results ( I realise they aren't really on the same scale)
34:Did 2014 meet your expectations? 
I don't remember my expectations
35:What's the most interesting experience you had in 2014? 
December 13. Nuff said.
36:Would you say you've changed during this year? 
ooh yeah
37:What's the bravest thing you did in 2014? 
Faced up to someone I had been avoiding for two years
38:What's the hardest thing you did in 2014? 
Admitted something to myself.
39:What's the most impressive thing you did in 2014?
Distinction in Maths at University #winning
41:What's the most honest/dishonest thing you did in 2014? 
Told someone something that had haunted me; turned out they already knew.
43:What songs do you think will make you remember this year? 
Ugly Heart, Break Free, Blank Space, Walking in Memphis, Piano Man
44:Did this year teach you anything? 
ALOT.
45:What do you expect from the new year? 
If I go in with no expectations, I won't be disappointed.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
be safe and enjoy.


Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

Support

There are times in everyone's life where they feel no good and like they have nobody to turn to. But today has been one of those days where I have taken a good second to think about the people I am surrounded by and how much they mean to me.


-This morning; I woke up to message from someone, just to say hi. Very few people will know how much that meant to me, as it was an old friend.
-Today I organised to meet up with two of my closest friends; simply being in their presence elevated my mood and I was happy to be there.
-Tonight, I told two good friends about my blog, and they both showed an immense amount of support and concern for my mental health (which was lovely, even though I am okay!)

So I have come to realise that the most important people in my life (besides family) I don't even have to stress about them being there, as I know they always will be.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

Mood swings

I hate when you feel a certain way. When nothing has provoked the feeling, and nothing can distract you from it. You just feel that way.

I've had that recently. Nothing will happen, nobody will annoy me, and something hasn't upset me, but I just feel down. Down and out, and completely unwilling to participate in life. It sounds so awful to say; but it's true!

I hate that the chemistry in your brain can communicate and make you feel like the whole world is against you and there is no point in existing. That sounds so dark and depressing, but it's scary.

Depression is scary.

I am lucky that it is not something that has affected me, a close friend or anyone in my immediate family; but there is a hereditary link to depression, which does run in my extended family.

I have days where I feel like that is what I have come to, but in the scheme of things, I am a happy person, which I would perceive as being normal, everyone has days where they feel completely down on themselves, and everything.

My brain just thinks the worst of a situation, which is odd, because to other people they would say I see the best in a situation...

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

Terror.

So I'm not usually one to worry when there are bomb threats and protests, but today's events are hitting a little close to home.

When I heard from a friend that there was a hostage situation in Sydney, I figured that there was maybe another man with people that owed him money, and that's all he wanted.
That wasn't the case.

The purpose is to instil terror. Upon just about anyone and everyone. The object is to stop people from going about their daily business and watch with terror hence; terrorism.

This issue won't go away, and I do not understand why it exists. I am not a racist person, nor do I have any problem with a multicultural Australia. However; when you live in a country with dominating predetermined social values, you abide by them. Holding people hostage for the sake of your religious or political standpoint is not acceptable, nor necessary.

I pray that everything will be okay.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

'Love is all you need...'

I have had one of the most interesting, yet draining, exciting, incredible weeks of my life. I feel like a lot happened, but what was a common factor within these events, was the amazing group of people I was surrounded by.

One thing that happened this week was when a close friend of mine went through a trying time. All they had was an immense amount of support, and all was okay. It truly goes to show how much the love and encouragement of the people around you can influence your life in so many ways.

'Love is all you need'. This quote comes from a good friend of mine, who feels its relativity also. It is true that if you are loved, and you give love, everything will be okay in the end, that is an understatement as far as I'm concerned, as the feeling of love, not necessarily romantically, but mostly in friendships and family, is one of the greatest things one can experience;

Besides sushi.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

10 Reasons Why Retail Workers Smile All the Time

Working in retail for three years has taught me some very important life lessons; well not so much life lessons as simple indications that society has slowly evolved into a black hole of feeling entitled and being arrogant.

So here is my list of why retail workers always have a smile on their face when dealing with bothersome customers.

1. Because you can't judge us based on what clothes we wear, since we usually wear uniforms, on the other hand, your shoes don't match and I can see your underwear.

2. Because unlike the managers in our store, if you are a pain in the ass and wish to make a store complaint, it's on their backs, not mine.

3. Because your jokes aren't actually funny and there's something in your teeth.

4. Because the people around think I'm an angel for dealing with your crap in a polite manner.

5. Because I'm getting paid to window shop.

6. Because unlike you, I appreciate good customer service when I see it.

7. Because I did know where that item was, but I handed you off to someone else because I did not want to walk you there.

8. Because when you hand me a hundred dollar note, I feel like a boss ass bitch for a brief moment in time.

9. Because I know all the words to the songs that play and I'm not afraid to sing them in your ear.

10. Simply because it's store policy.


Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

It's the most wonderful time of the year..

Christmas is upon us friends! and it's time to spread that cheer that makes this the most magical time of the year.

I adore Christmas. It truly is the most amazing time and I live for it. There is something about the decorations, the happiness, the anarchy, the shopping, the gifts and the food!

People come together for Christmas, as cliche as it sounds, people do! People forgive, they have kindness in their hearts and everyone just wants to have a good time.

I find Christmas to be a time of giving. There is nothing better than seeing someone's face when you give them a gift. It brightens my day and it is ten times better than the feeling of receiving a gift. That's just me, I mean I do like greeting gifts, don't get me wrong, but I adore giving.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

'Fake Friends'

One of the reasons I chose not to share this blog with anyone I know is so that I can post about things going on in my life, without people thinking it is directly linked to them, or our relationship.

Hence why I am now choosing to go on a ramble about fake friends. 

In high school fake friends were those who almost had to pretend to be your friends for a variety of reasons;

• You were in their group
• You were in their class
• You had to see them every day

But post school there is a choice. You get the distinct choice of who you wish to surround yourself with and who you wish to completely cut out of your life. 

Unfortunately, I have experienced something completely different. I cannot understand how it is that it has not turned out how I thought it would.

So I have this friend, who I have known for a while. And.. lets call them Alex.

Alex has always had a fair group of friends, i was usually one of them, but that has been a bit of an on-off thing for the duration of school. Now that we've left school, I feel like more of a hassle than a friend. It seems a chore to have to catch up and I'm always the one putting in the effort.

Quite frankly friends are meant to make a mark on your life, mean something to you. Alex? Well Alex used to...

I don't know if its the hour of night, or the fact that I have come to terms with the fact that I don't need anything from fake friends.

But that's just me.

Kindly and Considerably

CACL.

The Calm Before the Storm

Have you ever taken a minute to appreciate the moments before a storm hits?

It feels like nature is inhaling, pondering its next move, ready to unleash hell on the world below. There was a storm today. Mind you, that is now 'the norm' where I live. That's the third thunderstorm this week..

Storms are like a fantastic analogy for my brain half the time. I have to take a moment to think about my next move, but I usually then explode.
The moments after however, are truly a beautiful thing, especially if the sun comes out. It's like that second after you've really needed to go the bathroom for a while, and when you place your backside on that porcelain bowl of happiness, nothing is better. Speaking of, I have to pee

*Bathroom break, commence boring hold music*

As I was saying... well, I'd actually finished what I was saying, so this seems a good time to conclude my first post on my brand new blog!

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.