Support

There are times in everyone's life where they feel no good and like they have nobody to turn to. But today has been one of those days where I have taken a good second to think about the people I am surrounded by and how much they mean to me.


-This morning; I woke up to message from someone, just to say hi. Very few people will know how much that meant to me, as it was an old friend.
-Today I organised to meet up with two of my closest friends; simply being in their presence elevated my mood and I was happy to be there.
-Tonight, I told two good friends about my blog, and they both showed an immense amount of support and concern for my mental health (which was lovely, even though I am okay!)

So I have come to realise that the most important people in my life (besides family) I don't even have to stress about them being there, as I know they always will be.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

Mood swings

I hate when you feel a certain way. When nothing has provoked the feeling, and nothing can distract you from it. You just feel that way.

I've had that recently. Nothing will happen, nobody will annoy me, and something hasn't upset me, but I just feel down. Down and out, and completely unwilling to participate in life. It sounds so awful to say; but it's true!

I hate that the chemistry in your brain can communicate and make you feel like the whole world is against you and there is no point in existing. That sounds so dark and depressing, but it's scary.

Depression is scary.

I am lucky that it is not something that has affected me, a close friend or anyone in my immediate family; but there is a hereditary link to depression, which does run in my extended family.

I have days where I feel like that is what I have come to, but in the scheme of things, I am a happy person, which I would perceive as being normal, everyone has days where they feel completely down on themselves, and everything.

My brain just thinks the worst of a situation, which is odd, because to other people they would say I see the best in a situation...

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.

Terror.

So I'm not usually one to worry when there are bomb threats and protests, but today's events are hitting a little close to home.

When I heard from a friend that there was a hostage situation in Sydney, I figured that there was maybe another man with people that owed him money, and that's all he wanted.
That wasn't the case.

The purpose is to instil terror. Upon just about anyone and everyone. The object is to stop people from going about their daily business and watch with terror hence; terrorism.

This issue won't go away, and I do not understand why it exists. I am not a racist person, nor do I have any problem with a multicultural Australia. However; when you live in a country with dominating predetermined social values, you abide by them. Holding people hostage for the sake of your religious or political standpoint is not acceptable, nor necessary.

I pray that everything will be okay.

Kindly and Considerably
CACL.